…in numberless ways
I have loved you
in numberless ways
each one of which
seems the sweetest song
haunting me in the silence
of my lonely nights
it has always been you
the same song
still haunting
I have lost you
in countless ways
each one of which
seems the darkest loss
marking the hours of misery
a slow ticking clock
I have been lost
so many times
not wanting to be found
I have found you
in infinite oceans
each one of which
seems the deepest domain
carrying me away
into its endless depths
I have been found
over and over
aching to be lost
in my dreams
I find you and lose you
and find you again
in endless repetition
each finding, each loss
more lovely than the last
an affirmation
I am lost in the finding
and found in the loss
it has always been you
and it has always been me
and together is the only way
we will ever be free
© Ann Bagnall 2013
